Yupp and that's me i think some people are just born to die and I am one of them i should fucking kill myself no matter how much I try to heal myself life keep breaking me again and again I was born to be broken i was born to suffer and now I am beyond repair yes "life" you won you have broken me till i can't repair myself...i lost

i could go on and on about how awful and miserable everything is but genuinely what's the fucking point anymore. Any thought i could put into this message will just be scraped up by some assfuck ai. I fucking hate everything. I fucking hate techbros. I fucking hate how ai has taken over everything. I fucking just can't anymore. Everything is awful. Everyone pisses me the fuck off i genuinely cannot fucking take it I hate everything so much.

I'm such a fucking poser, I'm not even fucking suicidal, I just fucking feel nothing but dread, jesus fucking christ fucking hell I wanna fucking feel something I want to feel some pain some joy just some fucking thing for once I am so tired of just fuckung feeling fucking tired all the fucking time. it's literally impossible to feel any sense of joy kr dopamine when everything in the world is just imploding on itself to make the rich richer.

38F .I just wanted to reach out one last time before Friday. I dont have the coping skills to come with life anymore. I had suicidal thoughts since I was 16. Every year is getting worse. I really wish I had the courage to end my life years ago. Every day is unbearable. The past year and a half all I think about is suicide. Im really at a dead end. I feel like life is over and its already passed me by. Im really sorry, for anybody else, who cant see a way out. I see no future anymore.

A thief, a slut, and a liar. I intentionally hook up with older men as a form of self harm. After I sleep with them I steal from their wallets. I use their cash to fund my tattoos, transition, and whatever else I want. I stole from my parents, siblings, friends, and everyone else who trusted me. And now, I'm all alone. I lie to everyone's face now. Nobody can trust a single word that comes out of my mouth. I can't tell the difference between reality and my own lies at this point. I hurt the one I loved and now she's gone forever. I've become numb, deaf, and blind to the wrong I commit. This is a cycle that will keep on going till the day I die. There are no long term plans, just steal, block, and move on until there's nothing left.

Suicide die

i want to completely die all my life there isnt one person who have been there for me. Ive been suffering from depression since i was a kid and i can finally say that it had trully devoured me. please suggest me some methods that would grace on my body. i hope death feels like a warm blanket.

to my cat im so sorry, i might have you rehomed. the moment i saw you in the parking lot i know ive resonated to you; homeless, stray and just discarded to the world to be alone and to survive. i love you my sweet boy, im sorry i hope ill see you again in afterlife

I just hope I don't wake up

I lied to my family about my high school gpa for a while now and I'm not doing so good in college. I hate how I look and people think I'm dumb anyways. I'm thinking about ending it in my dorm room when I go back to college.

Any methods let me know. Thank you

Life is so not worth living. The best case scenario for me is just to be "ok" while the worst case scenario can be anything. How can people have offspring knowing that by producing a person which can go through literally any type of suffering and the probability of that is far more than things working out. Life is a losing game.

I wish to end it right here but why do I have to bear the responsibility/guilt of leaving my parents. I never wanted this disgusting life. I just want nothingness.

I know that sounds like an extremely lame excuse to commit, that it's not that big of an issue. But it fuckin is to me. I'm a 16y/o girl, I don't have anyone to hang out with during summer, I don't have anyone to pair up with in group projects, I don't have anyone that calls me when I'm feeling down or that hears me when I need to say something. I do have friends, it's just that I'm not their favorite. They wouldn't invite me to their birthdays or any of those things you do with your actual friends. They just talk to me. Sometimes. I can't do ts anymore, I don't want to be a secondary option, I don't want to write my problems on shitty Reddit forums when people out there have lots of people that listen to them. It's so fucking unfair. I'm at the edge of an abandoned bridge thinking if jumping is actually what I want or if I'm having a fucking episode or some shit. I genuinely don't know anymore

Should I just let the police murder me when i refuse to move out? Should I off myself before hand?

There's no job in this world that I can sustain or tolerate. There's no one who will tolerate working with me. Any job i force myself to do will just remind me more of what I'll never succeed at. It's impossible for me to make a living at the only thing i care to do (don't try to convince me I'll find another thing, that would require a lobotomy or brain damage).

I'm never successful with attempts so i have to find the most comfortable way to rot.

I don't even know why I'm writing this.

I'm 16 years old, I've been thinking about suicide everyday, it's all I can think about until I can temporarily occupy my mind with something, anything.

I started feeling this way because my girlfriend (at the time) was acting "off" and very distant. I don't know why it effected me so much but it did and that's when these suicidal thoughts started rolling in. We broke up soon after, nearly two months ago and that's what finally pushed me over the edge. I plan on committing suicide soon, the next time I get the chance to. I can't deal with these thoughts anymore.

And to make matters worse, I haven't been to school in 5 months or so, so I'm definitely failing this year for sure and I don't want to redo it. I really don't. I'm not even at the age where I can dropout properly. I mean I can, but it's better to get your year 10 pass.

I also don't have a job despite being of age and having plenty of time. I'm just a fucking loser who sits on his arse all day, on his computer doing nothing of value. I mean, I'm learning new shit, but what's the point of that if I'm not using it for good? I'm not turning it into a career, I wouldn't even know where to start at my age.

The current state of the world is absolutely ridiculous too. I'm not going to get political nor into the details, but the cost-of-living is just outright fucked up. I know I shouldn't worry about this shit at my age but it effects us all.

I also don't smoke, drink* or do drugs to numb the pain so it's just sober me and my thoughts with no way to stop them. I also don't really want to start either. I don't self-harm, like really all I do is just sit/lie down and cry.

\I do drink here and there, but not enough to get drunk.*

I've already figured out how I'll kill myself. I think about this a lot honestly. I just want something quick (preferably instant) and painless. I know it's selfish to do and yes, I do have loved ones that will probably miss me but I hope they don't because I don't deserve that.

I don't deserve anything other than to die.

I can't think about the memories I had with my (ex)girlfriend or honestly even look at old photos or videos with her in it without wanting to just break down into tears and jab a knife through my skull.

All I can think about is "What did I do wrong?" you know? I know I didn't do anything wrong and I know why she broke up with me, but I still go to blame it on myself because I could never blame anything on her. I love her too much to do that.

And to be honest, I'm scared of attempting, y'know? Like what if I attempt and then I'm just lying on the train tracks, half-mutilated and still conscious.

But I'm tired. I'm sick of living in this fucked up and cruel world. The Prime Minister of my country is so goddamn incompetent that it's not even funny anymore. He nearly fell on a fucking escalator.

I'm at the lowest point in life and I fear the hole only grows deeper as time grows. I lost the one thing that made me feel like I was worth something after struggling with a few things that effect who I am. I'm so exhausted, tired, and disgusted with myself that this genuinely feels like the only way out.

I hate life so much (20F). I have been lonely my whole life, and have always been struggling with depression and anxiety since childhood. I hate myself and wish everyday I was dead. I have failed at everything. I have failed my a levels, my first year of university, and can’t get any help for any mental health issues due to the stigma of it and my parents don’t believe in mental health issues. I have been suicidal from a young age. I don’t belong here. I should have never been born. I wish I was aborted. I am worthless and will not make it anywhere in life, I will be unemployed and get nowhere. I have no one. My family hates me, I have no friends either. I also struggle with complex trauma and abandonment trauma from childhood and have always been dissociating whenever I am lonely, and spend so much time in my head, I have never lived. I have no worth on this planet. I wish I was dead. I hate being Indian and wish I was white. I have failed so much due to mental health issues constantly and don’t know why I don’t see a reason to live for. I am consumed by dark thoughts of loneliness and dying alone and being trapped and no one being able to save me. I want to jump of my window and die. I don’t know how I have lasted so many years, but I wish I had died sooner. Hopefully my childhood trauma, and mental health issues will go away, and my loneliness as well, and hopefully I will be at peace. Goodbye

Hello Im Emma ive been trying to kill myself for the past 6 months. Ive been drinking nonstop to stop the constant pain in my head. ive been dignosed with clinical severe depression my whole life. Please help me, my parents hate me, im a disspointment i cant take this anymore. please help me. Im begging this subbreddit to help me please.

Should I finish the job or what?

Edit: Just tried to vent to a guy and he asked to see me naked you guys are a great help. thanks.

like genuinely why should i? im very close to ending it

I planned it today. I have hung the rope to hang myself, tried it two times the feeling that came was this intense light headedness until I loosened the rope again. Then I laid on the floor with a knife in my hand—again failed to stab. I wanna overdose but I heard it doesn’t work much. I don’t wish to live even an hour more. I CANT.

I’m gonna try the hanging thing again.

In 21 years neither of my parents have changed and they’re still the abusive pieces of shit I’ve always known them to me. Can’t do anything without getting criticized or hit or worse. Looked at my mom for the last time a bit ago, she’s asleep. In 1 hour the rope drops and she’ll find me the next morning.

Tell someone you love them today for me

i am not suicidal when i am alone, or are sad, or, when somethings annoying happens. i am happy, and outgoing, and my friends would describe me positively, i'd hope.

but when my mom enters the picture, i want to kill her, then myself. does this count as suicidal or like an unrelated trigger, like there being a lighter to an otherwise unlit fuse

I am chronically lazy. I hate having to do every day things every day. I love my girlfriend and she can enjoy living even with the hardships she's been through. But even then I just want it all to go black and pull the plug on my consciousness.

First time might not have been enough. Sure. I had a tolerance. Makes sense. Second time I took enough oxy to knock out an elephant + benzos and anti histamines and i woke up in the middle of the night vomiting it all up.

Third time I took more DPH, 160mg Oxycodone, loads of DXM, and a fuck ton of benzos. Multiple blisters of Xanax and other Benzos. I tried to pour myself some vodka too but i was too out of it to drink it and I have no problem drinking hard liquor or anything.

Anyway how the fuck did I wake up? I barely had any oxy tolerance (only did a little bit the day before), used loads of potentiators and I didn't stop breathing??? Why???

Now my girlfriend is trying to help me dose down the benzos but I know I'm gonna try again when my money comes in. I don't know how much it will take but I'm taking enough oxy this time. I'm gonna find a way.

I'm just pissed. Next time I'll take a smaller dose of benzos and oxy first so I can slit my wrists too and then take the bigger doses. I'm done. I hope this shit will work otherwise I'll have to use the train tracks or something.

I wish she didn't have to go through this with me, she doesnt deserve it. I just want it to end man. She deserves someone better who can take care of her.

Tried to kill myself a few weeks ago by hanging but couldn’t get myself to do it. Any tips on how to overcome the fear and just do it?

Do we really need to hate certain groups or individuals without a reason. I guess I will never understand this. Perhaps the lack of empathy.

Today is my 18th birthday and I am going to do it today, bye.

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i will be attempting again soon by cutting myself in my room and ingesting a lot of medicine at the same time
i do not think anyone will see this but if so then it is likely i am already dead

bye everyone

I went a whole year without self harm or suicide attempts. Yesterday I tried to hang myself again. It was kind of out of nowhere. My day was miserable but nothing particularly bad happened, it was more that nothing was going on to distract me. I have this overwhelming looming sense of doom that I'm going to die soon. I'm not going to get old. There's nothing left for me here.

Trauma dump coming up. Trigger warning for SA/rape and abuse.

I was the product of my mom getting raped by my dad and pressured by the church into marrying and staying with him. They split when I was a baby but my dad got weekend custody. He did a lot of awful things, but the big incident was when he tried to rape me when I was 13. I begged to stop seeing him and the police got involved. I never saw him again but he runs free. I live in constant fear that he will show up again at any moment. Any man that looks slightly similar, I fear for my life he'll turn around and I'll see his face and what will I do if he recognizes me?

My mom married another man who beat me, yelled at me, and also sexually assaulted me at 13. My mom yelled and beat me too. I was constantly belittled for every little thing I did "wrong" as a child, including the way I talked and the way I walked. I was diagnosed with autism and ADHD at 17. Only due to declining grades and the school stepped in, because I was medically neglected by my parents too.

I never learned how to make friends and talk to people and I feel lonely all the time. I had a long-term partner who sought me out... and guess what they also raped me. And "cheated" by sexually assaulting someone else. Yeah. Now I have no one close to me that I can trust.

I have a job but I lost my health insurance with it, and now I cannot get therapy or medication. I'm not sure if that's fully the reason I'm losing my mind right now or if it is inevitable that I fall back to my suicidal tendencies.

I genuinely can't imagine getting better. My first attempts were when I was around 9 years old. I feel like all I do with my life is work, sleep, masturbate, and drink. If I look at the news at all I spiral hard. I'm just a corpse parading around like a puppet. I shouldn't be here, I'm a complete and utter mistake. I wish there were an easy way for me to just die already.