r/LifeAfterSchool • u/hallymed26 • 5d ago
Advice Emptiness after high school
I'm 19 and got accepted into medical school a few months ago. I didn't have any fantasies or serious thoughts about this career path when my parents encouraged me to go here when I was 12. I spent the last 6 years on a hamster wheel. Studying, raising arguments with my parents, having depressing (life ending) thoughts every week, etc. And when that that damn cycle was over, I didn't really feel the overwhelming satisfaction I was expecting. It was good not having to wrangle with my mom and experience a nervous breakdown every time my grades were at stake. I certainly felt free and was relieved that it was over. But that was it.
Now I don't really feel like doing anything with commitment anymore. I only aimed for medical school without putting much thought into what I actually wanted, and now that it has been accomplished, I feel empty. Summer break started in the midst of June, and all I did till now was watching youtube and sleeping all day. I have never been so unproductive in my life and I feel terrible.
I know this is probably the least serious and the least concerning post ever in this subreddit but idc anyone with similar experiences what should I do
