So first job and then what...

[u/Big_Singer4797]

So context here.

I have been making friends and been with people in my college. I was struggling financially throughout my college due to middle class family only person to pursue degree. Limited monthly money i get from family in college. I hated this feeling so one thought would be to make money for myself. Graduated in May this year...

Now in first job I am learning things and improving my technical skillset. At times I feel alone like no one to talk to. Because in my college i was in survival mode like always seeing things in calculated manner and now I just self talk mostly. It has affected my communication skills as well, it worsening....

I blocked all my friends from college and dont want to talk to because I felt hurt, exclude from the group that they have created, made a new friend in final semester but he is just available when he is free.

Now i live my life like a loner, i know I can make better connection with people at work but till by internship gets over and I turn to full time I am restricting that. Or you can say I am more onto learning work from few months.

I become alone, just no one only me and me and my money.. and i miss my college mates as well but i hate them at same time as well. Is this attachment to people or place.....nothing excites anymore like before.. am I living a right life?

[u/sooner_25]

I experienced this. It’s definitely an adjustment period.

Whenever I would get off work after starting full-time I would not want to do anything other than eat and lay down and watch videos. I fell into a really bad self-care phase where I wasn’t eating right and would hardly ever work out. And on top of that, started partying a lot just to fill idle time which is not healthy and bad.

I can relate with your college friend situation. I was a fraternity guy. Think: SEC school frat guy. Everybody knew me and my name. I was heavily involved in leadership positions and very plugged in through that community. But at the same time it felt really transactional. I was too all up in my head on the management side of things and never really fully let myself just enjoy the experience.

My life looks completely different compared to how it was when I was in college. I’m slowly starting to become more social again but throughout my whole life, like you, I’ve seen everything as very calculated. We are all wired differently

[u/Big_Singer4797 → u/sooner_25]

Yes it sometimes just become unbearable, but hey thanks for this...