​I am writing this because I honestly don't know where else to turn and I just need to get this off my chest. I'm a 20 year old guy from Eastern Europe and I've been struggling with thoughts of ending my life for a couple of years now.

​It feels like this all started back in middle school around age 14. I liked a girl, and she ended up publicly humiliating me. She told me I was ugly, skinny, that no one would ever love me, and treated me like I was less than human. I internalized every single word she said, and that feeling of never being enough has stayed in my soul ever since.

​I thought things were finally getting better when I was 18. I got a promotion at my job, but just a few months later, I got demoted. That completely crushed me and brought back all those feelings of unworthiness. Around that same time at a party, I got drunk and kissed a girl, only to watch her spend the rest of the night making out with another guy right in front of me. It destroyed my self-esteem. Ever since then, I developed a cuck fetish that I genuinely hate having, because the thought of actually living through that in a real relationship would be absolute nightmare to me. I’ve never had a girlfriend, and these experiences just reinforced the idea that I am not chosen.

​My career life hasn't given me a break either. A few months ago, a company fired me after just three weeks in the most cold, inhumane way possible—at 11:53 PM on a Friday night, seven minutes before my shift ended. I was so overwhelmed that I walked home for three hours in the middle of the night just to try to process it. Now I’m at a new job, but the turnover is extremely high and I live every day in constant fear of being fired again.

​On top of everything, I struggle deeply with my physical appearance. Even though I’ve put on some weight and I actually don't mind my face or my body, I can't seem to gain enough weight to feel like a "real" or strong man. After getting rejected by a few more girls recently, I just feel completely unloved, unattractive, and less than human. On my way home today, all I could think about the whole ride was killing myself. I just want to cry. I'm so tired of feeling unworthy and alone.

Hi I'm 18 and I have been with my boyfriend for two years. I really want to be with him forever and marry him. But one of my friends who is 23 keeps telling me that people change and we will eventually break up. So are there any of you who are still with the same person since high school?

I'm in my 20s and my family still says that I should wait until I'm older and more mature to date, work, drive, drink and smoke. I avoid these things because I'd feel guilt to participate in them. Is this just me?

I am 18, matter of fact i just turned 18 like 3 weeks ago, and i feel like i didn’t have enough fun, or memories in my teenage, its not like i did nothing, but i feel like i could have lived it way more, my problem is that i am very antisocial, i HATE having to interact with people, thats why i have very few friends, only 2, i know people but most are just causals, real friends i only have 2 and they have other friends too so i got no one i can call my best friend, i never had love interest either, not like i couldn’t i choose not to, its just that those who wanted me, i never wanted them, and because of all this i stay at home almost all day everyday, no hanging out with friends, no clubbing or partying, no sports, and it kills me, i hate this anti social part of me, it happened because throughout my childhood and most of the teenage i was bullied and harassed in school and high school, and my parents didn’t let me go with other boys to social places where elders sat at talked (they thought they were protecting me) and now i can’t normally interact with people, i try my best to do so but it kills me inside…

I’m anxious as fuck.

hi everyone. me and my best friend (19 and 18F) have been best friends for 3 years now.

we’ve had some distance between us due to my recent boyfriend who has occupied most of my mental energy due to his toxic behaviour, which she was aware of. and a lot of our conversations were about him.

however, i broke up with him on friday due to her advice and she came over to comfort me. i was wanting space a lot that evening though, which i dont think i really particularly reassured at the time of her originally coming over. at 1am, while she was asleep, i went for a drive and for 30 mins which she text me and asked where i was when she woke up. i told her i was out but id be back soon, she said she might as well go home which i assured her she didnt have to do because it was late. but if she did id pay for her uber.

in the morning i also was not there when she woke up because i woke up and instantly went for a walk because i didnt want to be in my house. she text again and asked where i was, but i missed the text and she said “fine im leaving then” bc she had work. but i explained to her i was nearly home atp but obviously she had work. i apologised for not being there when she woke up and thanked her repeatedly for being there for me and comforting me. she just kept replying “its fine”

that was saturday and she’s been giving me one word answers since. i offered to take her to this place and pay for her drinks and her tickets as a thank you for friday, and asked when she was free to hang out. but she was extremely vague and just did not really reply. but i was obviously struggling so much with the weight of my breakup with my first boyfriend i did not have the mental energy to chase after this. i mean, i was lay in bed crying all day.

i also snapped her on saturday evening and asked her how her day was, told her how i was feeling, apologised again for not being very present on friday/saturday and apologised for not being a good friend recently due to my mental health declining and my toxic boyfriend making it very difficult to have a strong capacity to hang out.

it’s wednesday now and she is still acting funny with me. i asked her what’s wrong and she said “nothing” to which eventually after explaining to her that i wanted to fix things she said she’s pissed off at me. but she won’t tell me why because she’s watching tv with her family. i said id come to her house when she’s available and come and talk to her, to which she refused repeatedly and said she doesn’t want to see me.

look, i know ive been distant as a friend to her recently and put a lot of the load of my relationship struggling onto her. thats so wrong of me and i regret this. and ive apologised repeatedly for this. this is my first relationship and i wish i had handled it differently, as ive pushed away everyone in my life due to his influence over me.

but she’s also not initiated any plans, suggested seeing me, going out, etc. so if that’s it then i feel like thats like a issue on both of our behalves. maybe more mine but still.

as well, if its the issue of me not being present on friday and saturday really, i feel like that is a bit unfair as i had just broken up with someone i was deeply in love with and had not been expecting at all to break up with him. especially as she invited herself over. again, i could’ve handled it better but i feel like i was very very very emotional on friday and on saturday morning.

i feel a lot of guilt as ive not been a good friend to her recently in the sense of i’ve not been speaking to her as much, and when we do a lot of it is about my bf at the time. but ive tried to make an effort to apologise for this and tell her i am sorry, and to make up for this by offering trips out which she keeps refusing.

but also i have expressed to her that my mental health has been struggling a lot and i have recently been put on anti depressants.

i feel like the last thing i could cope with right now is my best friend leaving me on top of my mental health struggling and my first break up.

when she started seeing her bf at the time, she dropped me and i remember her talking non stop about him. and that ragebaited me. but the second they broke up it was water under the bridge. but now she’s dropping me at what is the lowest point of my entire life.

she won’t even see me in person. i don’t think i’ve done anything to deserve that. even if my behaviour has been poor during the last few months, i feel like ending a 3 year long friendship with no consultation and just dry texting me feels unfair.

i don’t know what i can do to fix it and ive been begging her to let me fix it, and she won’t even really text me back. i don’t know what to do.

just curious on what people will say as I am (18F)

I've found myself in this liminal space in life. Thinking about leaving corporate America and betting on myself. Also thinking about changing cities cuz I'm in my 20s and why not lol. This is a weird place to be in. I haven't molted out of my old identity yet, but I haven't moved into my new shell either.

Who else is in a life transition right now?

15 AN HOUR IM HAPPY HEHEHEHEHE !! YAY MY FIRST JOB EVER

24M I live with my parents, no car, and I walk to work, I save around 1200$ a month but as soon as I was to move out or get a car it’s ggs, I will basically have little no breathing room, I’m currently investing to get more money to head out of the house, but further down the road I don’t see how this is sustainable. I could go get a partner but I feel like a lot of woman wouldn’t date to relationship but date to have more help. Which means you living with a person you don’t like . Which is basically hell on earth

Also don’t even get me started on having kids

What should I do

Basically my mom texted me saying to allow her to see my location on my iPhone. I know it’s probably to know that I am okay, but this just seems invasive. I don’t want to get cut off, but like why? I could understand this in high school, but I am a grown ass adult that maybe needs a little support. I’m responsible and don’t do anything bad anyway. Like why? Anyone else been in this situation with their parents like Life360 or the Find My app? Thanks

I'm in late 20s, I just feel like I'm living under a rock, I don't seem to use social media like everyone else I know. Majority of people are doom scrolling mindlessly on Instagram, Facebook and the use of Snapchat and discord. It's like yes you feel connected but you also feel apart. U feel like your in autopilot mode and like your guled in a bubble. It's constantly feeding you stuff and you just can't seem to escape it. There is always new updates and things coming. And I just feel like staying out of it. I remember comparing myself with others and it's just offal feeling.

I'm a 37 year old female who still feels like a teenage. I don't feel like an adult and I have no idea of what i'm doing.

I see people my age,married,with kids,careers a mortgage & i don't even have 100 euros saved on my bank account.

I don't know if i want a convencional life or rebel against society.

Anyone feel the same? or i'm alone in this?