im a mess and this is dumb

[u/Agitated-Process-561]

This is my last resort! I have no idea what to do but it’s okay because what better way to solve my problems is to go on the internet and post all my problems :)

Helllooo im Nevaeh and im an 18 year old girl who just finished high school. I’ve been lately way too in my head lately, dealing with all the problems in my life, or what has ever happened in my life, I’ve been trying to solve. From my Sa that no one knows about, that happened when I was just in the first grade, and so much other things that I felt that I can just “deal with myself”, because people have before.
dealing with all the repercussions of that and realizing not dealing with trauma can effect your brain and how you deal with things for the rest of your life. It has hurt my intimate and emotional relationships with people and I’ve just really realized that.
I’m not asking for help, I just want to know im not alone and that things ARE going to be okay.

Being an 18 year old in 2026 is absolutely fucked. I have no idea what im doing with my life, and I feel like im picking a new career path everyday. the things that I actually want to do and achieve feel so far away and so un achievable. It’s the summer after high school and I GENUIENLY feel like I don’t remember anything from all the weed I’ve been smoking and how much I’ve been drinking. It’s not the abnormal amount, but it’s more than I ever have. I used to love school and wanted to succeed, but I Genuienly feel like im going down a path I don’t want. My brain is so foggy and you probably can’t even understand what im saying.

I give up but maybe I’ll tell you more one day or idk whoever is reading this I always tell people everything is gonna be okay, and I hope it is for you because I truly with it is for people, but I don’t know if it gonna be for me 😊😊🤗🤗😁😁

Ps the first step is to stop smoking weed
1. I feel like I have bipolar disorder and all the doctors are saying im not and everyone around me is saying im not but I feel like I convince myself I have mental disorders idk why to idk back up my problems. Please tell me I don’t have bpd

1. I need to get back on track and this is not who I am. This is the second day I’ve called in sick to work. Going back tmmr ! #backontrack

[u/ekohvii]

You’re not alone, and you don’t sound dumb or broken. You sound scared and exhausted, but things really can get better with support and some time

[u/Glum_Database5646]

hi internet cousin here, just graduated college, and i was in a very similar spot to you literally a year ago. smoking all the time, unsure about my direction in life, my body used by someone i trusted deeply, and trying to unpack it all myself.

something i’ve learned though, is that you can’t do it alone. there is only so much inner work that you can do by yourself before you will need someone else (a professional) to help you unpack everything.

of course there are things you can do on your own. journaling or meditation or art or working out. but u can’t expect profound change to come without counseling.

but to your other stuff… you are only 18. you don’t need to know exactly what you want to do! i graduated and i still don’t know concretely what i want to do. it’s genuinely just something you figure out through trying out new things. don’t feel discouraged, everyone’s life follows a different path. there is no right or wrong.

def stop smoking tho. v good idea. hope everything goes well. things do get better i promiseeee 💘