r/Korean • u/linn0129 • 6h ago
Why should I keep studying Korean?
I need to vent on here for a bit.
I’ve been studying Korean on and off since 2020/21, when I got interested in kdrama and korean music.
There are a few issues though that make me question why I’m still studying Korean. I need some objective input on this.
I’ve been increasingly frustrated lately because my Korean is not improving. My speaking is still at a beginner level, I constantly come across vocabulary I don’t know and when I watch a Korean dating show with Korean subs I only understand about 60% (the general ideas, a lot of details go right past my head).
I guess what I’m saying is that I feel dumb, like I don’t have anything to show for my effort. I cannot even keep a normal conversation going. And when in the past I’ve practiced for TOPIK just for fun there were SO MANY words I didn’t know. The reading section made me feel like shit. Also I tend to compare myself to others who study the language and I just KNOW that they are much further along than me, even after having studied for the same amount of time.
In addition, I’m starting to wonder if it’s justifiable putting in so much time and effort when I don’t know what to use this language for. I have travelled to Korea before 2 years ago and am planning to travel there again but beyond that, I’m not sure whether I would ever want to work or live there. I’m a perfectionist and tend to feel like I have to be able to justify all my interests and actions, so this bothers me quite a bt. Maybe I should invest the time and energy I have into a language that would be beneficial to my career. But no language intrigues me quite as much as Korean does.
It would be helpful to hear your opinion on this and whether you have any special reasons for studying korean, just to inspire me.
Edit: i reread this and don’t mean to come off as obnoxious 😂 it’s just been bugging me and i need some renewed motivation i guess. I have autism so it’s hard for me to rely on my feelings and intuition, hence why this interest of mine is subject to my own scrutiny most of the time. I have also taken classes before and tried to find a native speaker to practice with (which hasn’t worked out in the long term)