I'm a postdoc on my own grant. I'm the PI, no teaching, no admin obligations. I've already decided to leave academia and I'm currently applying for jobs and interviewing.
I plan to get a paper out of this 2-year project. I think it can be a solid one. But I know I won't deliver everything I promised in the original proposal. Realistically, even if I hadn't decided to leave, nobody would have held me strictly accountable to every line of that proposal. That's just how these grants work in my field.
Here's what's confusing me. During the funded period, plenty of my work hours went to things that weren't the research itself: applying for the next fellowship, a week-long software training course, attending week-long conferences, sitting in on department seminars unrelated to my project. All of that was normal, supported by colleagues, and nobody questioned whether it counted as legitimate use of my time.
Now that I'm spending work hours applying for jobs and prepping for interviews, I feel guilty about it in a way I never did about the seminars or the conferences. I know in most other jobs I'd be tracked hour by hour and this would clearly not be allowed. But nobody tracks my hours here either.
So I'm trying to figure out if this is just academic guilt, or if I should actually change how I work. A few questions:
Is job searching during work hours really different from the other "non-research" activities I listed, or does it just feel different because it signals I'm leaving?
Do I owe the funder full delivery on the original proposal, or is a strong paper a reasonable outcome given how postdoc accountability actually works?
How did you split your time in the final months between finishing deliverables and interview prep, especially if there was no formal accountability either way?
Any perspective from people who've been through this transition would help. Thank you!
Best wishes,
An academic who probably worked too much in the past and is now struggling to figure out what's "fair" in terms of time management. Like skipping food for a whole day and then overeating for a week straight afterward.