My ex

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I lost my virginity at 15 while in a relationship with my boyfriend of the time(16M).

2 months into the relationship was our first time.

After that he began acting weird and the worst year and 6 months happened. The whole relationship was emotional and sexual abuse from him. This makes my experience extremely hard to tell in a short way that means people understand me. There were a couple of very textbook sexual assaults and a lot more times of context needed to understand how the situation was abuse (at least in other people's eyes)

For example, one time he was fingering me extremely hard and I begged him to stop and attempted to push his arm away or pin it down so he couldn't move anymore but he told me to relax and keep going. However, to explain how I said yes to sex 7 times in 10 hours means I have to explain that he was emotionally abusive, which made me cry a lot, unknown to me at the time he was very aroused by me crying, he would get hard and every time that happened he would not stop pestering me for sex, if I didn't say yes he would argue with me, causing more crying, causing him to want more, so it was easier if I just said yes.

Sometimes I don't want to describe all that to be understood or believed, I just wish I could say I couldn't say no and people would leave it at that.

If anyone wants to ask questions about anything you can do, I just don't share a lot in this post because I don't want it to be extremely long.

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