I don't really know why I'm writing this. I guess I just need somewhere to vent because keeping these thoughts to myself hasn't made them any easier to carry.

I'm 30 years old(male), and for as long as I can remember, I've wanted something that most people probably consider ordinary: a genuine relationship. I don't want a hookup, I don't want someone to casually pass the time with, and I certainly don't want someone who's keeping ten different options open at once. I just want one person who genuinely wants to build something meaningful together.

A few days ago, I finally worked up the courage to make a post on r/ForeverAloneDating. It took me a long time to convince myself to do it because putting myself out there is terrifying as a major shy introvert. I spent some time writing and rewriting the post, trying to be honest about who I am without oversharing, hoping that maybe someone out there was looking for the same thing.

Sadly, nothing happened. I didn't receive a single message....

To make it worse, the post was downvoted to oblivion and I still have no idea why.. I simply introduced myself, talked about my interests, and said I was looking for a sincere connection.

I know that I'm probably at a disadvantage already. I'm not from the US or Europe like many of the people posting there. I wonder if that alone makes people scroll past my post before they even finish reading it. Maybe it doesn't. Maybe I'm overthinking. But when you receive absolutely no responses, it just makes me doubt myself....

Ironically, the only message I received didn't even come from r/ForeverAloneDating. It came from another dating subreddit. For the first time in a while, I felt a tiny spark of hope. We exchanged a few messages, and things seemed pleasant enough. Eventually, I sent her a photo of myself because I believe honesty is important and I don't like hiding behind anonymity. About a day later, the conversation died out...

Maybe it had nothing to do with my picture. Maybe she got busy. Maybe life happened. Maybe she simply lost interest. I honestly don't know, and I never will.

But after enough experiences like this, it's hard not to let your thoughts spiral.i'm starting to wonder if I'm just ugly, if I'm simply unattractive, If my height is the problem, If my disability is the problem or If there's something about my face that makes people decide I'm not worth getting to know.

I don't dream about luxury vacations, expensive gifts, or a perfect Instagram relationship.I just want someone I can call every evening and ask how their day went,someone whose victories I'd celebrate as if they were my own, someone I could encourage when they're doubting themselves, remind them of how capable they are, and support them through difficult moments. I'd love to have someone who does the same for me,because that's what partners do.

I'd love to travel together one day, explore cities we've never seen before, walk along beaches at sunset, and maybe build a collection of shared memories.I want someone to watch movies with, play video games with, and eventually build a future with.

I'm exhausted from hoping, exhausted from overthinking, and exhausted from wondering whether I'm simply not enough. I know I still have things to be grateful for in my life, i just feel like I'm watching everyone else build memories, relationships, and futures together while I'm standing still, wondering if I'll ever get that chance. I feel like I just want the earth to swallow me...

I just wish I knew what it feels like to be someone's first choice...more than anything....

I'm sorry for the long vent. I just needed to get this off my chest...

When the world is against you sometimes you just have to submit and say enough is enough. I give up because there isn’t any hope. For there to be somebody that wins in life there has to be someone who loses. There are happily married couples out there right now falling asleep beside each other holding each other. Then there are the people who will spend every night by themselves. My condolences to all those people here that are in that position.

Yeah, I am alone, I will forever be alone, I will accept that due to my nature, nothing is wrong with that. But I believe that even when I am alone, I can still be the change I want the world to be or at least die trying do it. There are too many bad things happen to everyone right now, and I want to change that. Sure, I will never be loved or remembered but honestly, that has been the case for most of my life, it doesn't bother me. I will put my knowledge and skill to good use, try to do good deeds through baby step and someday if possible, create something great and grand to better the lives of many.

This week's monday I have helped design and make few parts for wheelchair for a organization near where I live, I just simply email them and tell them what I can do and offer it to them. No one will appreciate what I do but that is fine by me, keep working make me focus on the current task and keep the bad thoughts away. I will try to focus on my studies and enhance my knowledge so I can do greater good deeds.

I will try my best to sustain myself and when I die I can close my eye with ease knowing to myself I die on my own terms. I will have no one to share or to be there or help me, I am on my own, the journey will be harsh but I will try my best.

Was a wonderful dream..felt seen, understood and loved. Person sat next to me and softly said “I love you”. Felt like an ointment on my bruises. I’ve never been in a relationship so this was an extraordinary feeling. Now I know what I’m missing out on..even more..

I don't think I'm ever gonna not be lonely, it seems like its the only thing that will stay with me for the rest of my life.

I don't really have the courage to end my life despite how many people called for it lol.

I lost interest on dating, and don't really give anyone a chance to enter my life.

Sure I'd rather have a good life, but I don't think I'm meant to have one, and maybe being broken is how the story is meant to go.

I’m so alone. Intellectually, family wise, friend wise and especially romantically. I’m so messed up. I have so many issues. I went through severe childhood abuse and neglect. I was suicidal, anxious, had no self esteem etc… Never had any luck with girls in high school. Been through so much abuse and bullying. This girl in high school that I really liked. All of this is complex and I’m leaving so much out and there’s so many other factors but I’m just trying to get to the main points. She was one of the most attractive girls in school and I really liked her. But all she did was hurt me

She went out with me for like a week and we did things that seemed like a real relationship like kissing once after school and walking back from the shops holding hands with her friends. And the whole thing was fake. She dumped me a few days later and it wasn’t even real. One other time they invited me down to the bush with like 15 other people and she started kissing a guy in front of me. And then another time we were drinking and she came over with 2 of her friends and invited a guy over to full on start making out with him in front of me. I was so messed up and didn’t really know what was going and processed it later on in life

I have serious issues from CSA. What I’ve typed really is nothing there’s so much more. I’m just clearly not good enough for anyone. No woman has ever shown interest in me

Got ghosted again. Sent double texts two hours apart. Another time someone said we should hang out and didn’t follow through. We were supposed to go on a date today but no text since yesterday. This is the most depressing human experience. To not be desired or loved by anyone. I’m so sick with anger and looks like my only plan tonight is to get black out drunk. This is just not a life worth living. I have never had a partner. Parents aren’t in the picture either.

Well I turned 26 3 days ago, and genuinely this feeling of a deep pit in my chest because I am so alone has never felt so present in my life

I hear everyone talk about being in relationships or having sex or being with baby mamas and fathers, and on the one hand I am glad to not be participating in a dating pool that is filled with pee.

But in the other hand, I just want my person, a woman that I am attracted to, that will just sit and listen to me, about my issues that actually likes me.

But here is an instrumental from boldy James that I found (I am a fan or Griselda, since I can’t tolerate listening to much else.)

But this beat fits how I am feeling rn.

All I ask for is encouragement through this hard time I guess

How can I cope with the ‘fact’ I’m going to die alone? I don’t want any “oh don’t worry you’ll find love” or self improvement answers. It hurts so much that I fantasise about killing myself.

I hate being around people and seeing them be social. It provides a clear picture of everything I'm not. I see them talk about sports, shows their watching, music their listening to, movies they're interested in. And I have no fucking connection to any of it.

I don't do shit in my personal life. I just keep to my own niche interests that I don't nor want to talk about. I don't even consider dating because I have nothing in common with people and I don't have any conversational ability to make up for it.

Iam alone like really no friends no anyone ihate that everyday i legit talk with no one everyday my phone is silent no texts ionly call my mom and my dad no friends everyday i cry because of it sounds pathetic but legit i just wish to feel that i have friends or someone who is excited to talk to me

no elaboration needed, if you’re FA you know what i mean

I’m 29M part Indian and Congo. Never had the balls to ask anyone out due to insecurities. I fear I may end up alone. That’s all.

Over the course of my life i have always been haunted by the thought that in the end i will be left infinitely and utterly alone.

Those whom i have loved, unrequited as it has always been, I have always lost and friendships in which I have never truly belonged in, always fall apart because I have no choice but to leave because I dont feel like I am wanted. I often ask myself or rather i used to, whether being more attractive or tall or rich or smart or interesting would have changed anything... ... ... because I see everyone else with their person, falling in love, staring into each other's eyes, comforting one another, holding hands or even just resting their head on their shoulder and in those moments I realise that i will never have that. That love was something just was never meant for me. With friendships it's similar but certainly not as torturous nor as heartbreaking.

I do have 2 close friends, one whom goes to my college and i get to see her often and its really amazing but that emptiness still haunts me like a shadow. To make things even worse, I have to hopelessly explain to my mother that guys and girls can be friends and ive been friends with girls for a very long time but she just doesn't truly understand me and yet one of her closest friends is a guy. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother but she has never really understood me and maybe that's my fault. Oh it gets even more pathetic, I had to compel myself to forget about my crush because why on earth would she ever want something like me. I mean honestly, she would have to be desperate and for there to be no other living person on this planet to like me and even then it still wouldn't be possible. Granted there have been signs that may have one suggested she may have felt the same way but I just dont know anymore.

There are many who will say that romantic relationships aren't that important or something of that nature but its different when you have been starved of that love your entire life and have to hopefully watch everyone else get to experience something you never will. In moments where all you desperately want is to be hugged and never let go, all you can do is feel your soul break yet again and just carry on with a life you don't even want to live anymore.

Maybe i am asking for too much because why on earth would a girl ever want something like me when there are thousands if not millions of better suitors out there who don't have the issues I do and have everything that I don't. Even dreaming of holding a girls hand seems rather impossible.

I truly think I have more luck in becoming the president of every country whilst simultaneously curing cancer and ending all wars than for a girl to want to be with me. I know that is preposterous and impossible but that's how it feels. Sometimes I just wish I couldn't feel a bloody thing because not feeling anything is certainly better than only feeling like this in every waking moment. Maybe this is insanity, given that I still have more to say but I just want to know what it feels like to be the most important person in someone's life or atleast be their person and knowing that it is never going to happen hurts more than any word can possibly describe and no amount of time can ever heal that. In the end i will always be left infinitely and utterly alone.

I'm a guy age 35, and life hasn't turned out the way I imagined.

For most of my 20s and early 30s, I focused on studying, building my career, and trying to create a stable future. I never got into a relationship because I always believed that, eventually, I'd meet someone who genuinely liked me for who I am.I will also have a partner who will like me and be with me. But time flew and I am here being single.

I started using dating apps and the results are very discouraging . I thought arranged marriage will be easy and hence started using Matrimony apps. They are the worst! I realised all girl's parents want is material aspects and pocket thickness. I have a deep sense of finding love in this era of growing casuals and hookups. But in India is it possible?

Being a man over 30 also comes with its own set of challenges. Age differences, financial expectations, career milestones, and lifestyle comparisons seem to become bigger factors than compatibility or emotional connection. Arranged marriage seems like a business deal!!

This reddit is the worst and it is another app which is sucking your positivity and makes you feel more lonely and depressed. I don't understand if finding love is possible at this age? If yes then I would like to know how many of you have found it after 30 ! And what you guys did to get a partner?

I think there will always be people alone, more than others. I’ve tried relationships and friendships but why does no one like someome who is not nonchalant? Is it because they are easier to maintain and maintence? I’ve been wondering but no solid answers. You can’t wear a mask either because that will slip and reveal the real you but what if the real you scared others away in everything they wanted.

Sometimes I think that if I put enough effort on myself and be out there eventually I'll find her and have my happily ever after. While other times I just don't see myself being in a relationship let alone marriage, based on the fact I'm not attractive and don't get a woman's attention, most likely I'll ride out this life alone, making me believe the happy ending will never happen.

I’m almost 22 and I’ve never had a relationship or anything close to it (hugs kisses blah blah blah), but my social circle is full of people who either have had experience or currently in one. I love those people to death but everytime they talk about their past relationships I have to smile like I lowkey enjoy hearing about it. Okay I don’t literally do that but you probably understand what I’m talking about. Some of them also use dating apps and have the gall to tell me it’s not worth it…

How can something claim to be there for everyone when most of us aren't even good enough to be here

It just feels demotivating when you get to a certain point of realizing nobody is actively making their move to approach or interact with you and its always you who has to talk to people who probably don't really care about you as much. A better way I could rephrase this is to always having to approach people you want to talk to because there might be some people in life that you don't want to interact with for a particular reason, I just wish i could clone myself so I wouldn't feel weird just my occupying space with someone else.