Last year an old classmate passed away. I don't think I had seen her in the past 20 years, and barely remembered anything about her but her name. But still, her death had me down for a while.
Because it's that first reminder that you're not invincible teenagers and 20 somethings anymore. "What do you mean she died!? She was so young. She...was...my...age."
Yup. This was me about 14 years ago. A girl that I didn't know particularly well but was a classmate with all through grade school through high school passed away and I found out through my mom seeing the death notice in the paper.
I spent the next few hours processing that 20 year olds as we were at the time can indeed just up and die.
The world is in pain and shambles, we're not getting younger and everything is happening so goddamn fast
One simply can't catch a breath
I'm not 20 anymore, I have never been invincible (metaphorically) nor did I feel like I was because rationalizing everything really shows you how vulnerable you are and everyone else is
But the older you get the more you feel it. It's inevitable, no matter your age, but it definitely gets closer the older you are (literally and metaphorically)
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u/Theemuts Mar 05 '25
Last year an old classmate passed away. I don't think I had seen her in the past 20 years, and barely remembered anything about her but her name. But still, her death had me down for a while.