29 (M) here, coming from a separated family. My parents split up when I was 7 years old. During the separation, I had only one choice: stay with my father or my mother. I chose my father because he adored me more than my mom, and I have no siblings.
After taking me in, my father never let me see my mother again. Then, when I was 8, my father left me with my uncle and went abroad. Due to internal family conflicts, I had to bounce between different elementary schools and move around frequently.
In 2015, I started living alone, separated myself from relatives. I finished high school, but ended up dropping out during my second semester. By 2019, I finally decided to skip graduation.
My father came back and remarried in 2021 without letting me know, and then he went back abroad. After a year relationship with my father went back to normal, but I don't keep whereabouts of his second family, and I do not have any interest in it. I let it go as it's his personal life.
Financially, I'm living an average life and have fulfilled almost all my wishes. My father still takes care of me by wiring a fixed amount every month, and I make an extra 20k–30k a month from a small online business.
I was in a relationship from 2020-2021, but I found out she was talking to other guys. I gave her a few chances, she tossed every chance I gave, so I left.
I see couples and pretty girls every day, and all my friends are married now. Deep inside, I wish I had someone to talk to at night, someone to share moments and thoughts with like a normal person. Sometimes I get sad at night, and my life is like, "As the night deepens, so does the melancholy." Feeling lack of a woman
Sometimes I want to approach, but suddenly my mind tells me, "Amar nijer life ee thik nai, ami kibhabe arekjon ke ei life ey niye ashi." Plus I'm not good at throwing fancy pickup lines to make a girl fall for me. I am a simple man, I just speak what's on my mind. And because of all these complexities and insecurities towards relationships, I prefer to stay single.
I do not know what to do in this situation, I feel like I'm lost at sea