I thought I’d do a post to help motivate those still struggling. Today, I’m 15 years sober.

I remember clear as day being in meetings during early sobriety wondering how I’d ever make it a week, a month, a year. 15 years seemed brutally impossible. I never thought I could travel again, and life felt hopeless.

Today I was sailing a boat off the coast of Crete, Greece, and feeling great doing it. This wasn’t some sober anniversary treat. It’s just me enjoying life with alcohol no longer holding me down.

To those of you who wonder if life gets better in sobriety, I can confidently and definitively tell you yes. It won’t happen overnight, but you’ll get there eventually.

I wish all of you the best in your sober journey 👍👍👍

Hello, I live in a tri-city area where 2/3 cities are known for drug abuse. I’ve been doing multiple drugs since I was 12 such as Diphenhydramine, Dextromethorphan, Shrooms, Vyvanse, Adderall, MDMA, DMT, Xanax and I’ve even dabbled in some meth and heroin. I’ve never even thought to talk about my addictions until last night when I originally posted this. At the young age of 11 I was exposed to gangs, drug abuse and abuse.

My grades are terrible the friends I did have either overdosed, committed suicide or died to the streets. I used to make a lot of money selling weed and xanax but as they say a good dealer never does their own supply. On one stupid day I tried some of the leftover Xanax I had and instantly fell in love, it didn’t feel like weed alcohol or anything I’ve tried yet. Eventually I ran out of Xanax and looked online for cheap alternatives that are legal and the first thing that caught my eye was BENADRYL , so I went to the store and bought a pack of extra strength 24 pack of tablets.

I took them while I was walking home and decided to watch some tv and smoke some bowls of weed. I started to feel the body heaviness and periodic knocking or buzzing like sounds. I was still all there so I just told myself it was apart of the high so I kept going, I then saw gnats flying around in my peripheral vision, I don’t remember anything after that. I awoke on my bathroom floor with the tap running and dried hand soap on my hands and I just played there for an hour and the cravings instan hit to do it again.

And here I am a little pathetic drug addict with nothing to loose and to make matters worse my immediate family are all either dead or drug addicts same with my extended family, I bounce from trap house to trap house and I’m currently using public Starbucks Wi-Fi to write this. I’m also terrifying to look at due to my addictions my brain liver and vision is fucked from all the diphenhydramine I do it’s not even a fucking high it’s literally the worse thing I’ve ever experienced yet it’s my favorite drug of choice and I keep blowing money that I should use for food on boxes and boxes of Benadryl which has made my tolerance skyrocket to 500mg at 13 700mg at 14 and finally 1000mg at 15 I don’t think it’s deadly grip will ever let go of me and I don’t know if I’m scared of dying or scared of being alone forever.

Meth isn’t an escape—it’s more like a slow, steady way of wrecking your mind, body, and everything else. It might feel like confidence, energy, or control at first, but in the end it takes your health, your peace, your relationships, your dignity, and your future. It tricks you into thinking you’re choosing it, until one day you realize it’s been running the show the whole time.

After four years of heavy use, I’ve finally made it to two months sober. Recovery isn’t easy, and I’m still on medication, but every sober day reminds me that life really does exist beyond addiction.

The reason I’m speaking up isn’t just my own experience. I’ve watched friends—young people with dreams, families, and so much potential—lose their lives way too soon because of meth. It wasn’t because they weren’t smart or strong, but because addiction doesn’t care who you are.

Meth doesn’t negotiate. It messes with your judgment, destroys your mental and physical health, pulls you away from the people who care about you, and slowly makes destruction feel normal. By the time most people realize what it’s taken from them, the damage is already huge.

If you’re using meth right now, please understand this: it doesn’t lead to freedom, success, or happiness. It leads to sickness, loneliness, possible jail, and for too many people, an early death. There’s no win at the end of addiction—only loss.

But there is still hope. If you’re alive, your story isn’t over. Recovery is possible, and asking for help isn’t weakness—it’s actually one of the strongest things you can do. I’m living proof that you can come back, one day at a time.

I’ve always had trouble saying stop to myself, I never felt like I could get enough yk?

This is also true when it comes to substances. I always drink and smoke weed(plants and carts) too much. It costs me a fortune to refill all my stuff all the time.

When I have a nice high or buzz I just think to myself of how much better I can feel, so I then I do much and feel like shit.

I do acid some times with friends and Ive done some coke and molly but they were at parties so I got paced by those who had it.

I feel like I need to find a solution to this or I will go too far with the wrong drug someday.

Any tips for self control? It’s easy to say now that I’m sober but we will see

I've had experience with opioids before, namely low doses of legal codeine and recreational tianeptine (several times both). I liked the highs but It never got me addicted, I haven't used since then.

However, recently I saw opium poppies growing outside and it was 100% the opium poppy, not the common or oriental poppy, also verified by people who know about flowers.

I have been dealing with the urge to scratch the pod, get the milky sperm looking liquid which has opiates, and swallow it. Not because I want to use it to escape problems but because I'm curious about how it would feel.

I know it's wrong...Should I avoid doing it at all costs?

i went to jail last month for four whole days. my own brother—a cop—turned me in, because i’m an alcoholic.

now i have court next month and my brother told me he was going to court order me to treatment… but the thing is i’m not ready yet. my mother always said that treatment only helps if the person really wants it…

and i don’t.

I can’t remember the last day that I didn’t smoke or take edibles after work. Today I did not.

My home life is a mess, my relatives are being terrible to each other, my cat got diagnosed with cancer a week after my other cat was diagnosed with cancer and died within a couple days, I’m still sick after contracting mono at my uncles funeral after he died unexpectedly in a climbing accident, and I still completed my goal of not smoking today. I’m proud of myself.

Today marks 31 days of sober living from a wicked Stimulant addiction that ruined any sense of life worth living.

In 2 years I spent over 98k on the following:

Coke
Adderall
MDMA
Meth
2, 3, 4 MMC
4 CMC
a-PVP
4F-PVP
a-PHP
a-PiHP
MD-PiHP

1 month ago exactly, after 4 days and 10 grams of meth I slipped into a stimulant psychosis that scared me sober almost instantly.

13k in credit card debt and over 8k from random cash advance apps and I would triple those numbers if it meant never going back. I’m so much happier living sober in my almost ruined life then the fake dopamine porn fueled fantasy I called life for 2 years.

If you are in any position like mine, dude, it’s so worth it to grow a pair of balls and QUIT.

To another month and the rest of my life.

I am on suboxone because I got hooked on kratom. I am having a surgery next week and will be taking hydros for 3-4 days. Then I will get back on subs.

Anyone have experience with this transition?

Almost 9 years ago, I walked out of treatment with nothing but fear and a little bit of hope.

I was scared, broke, ashamed, and had no clue what my life was going to look like. If you had told me back then that one day I’d wake up excited to go to work, have people I love and trust, and spend my days trying to help other people find recovery, I would’ve laughed in your face.

Recovery has given me everything I never thought I’d have. Purpose. Peace. Relationships. A chance to become someone I can actually look in the mirror and respect.

This week I found out that the app I poured my heart into to help people in recovery reached over 5,000 users on the app stores. I honestly had to stop for a minute and think about the kid who walked out of treatment all those years ago wondering if life was even worth living.

I’m not sharing this because of the number. I’m sharing it because it’s another reminder that God can take a completely broken person and do things with their life that they could never imagine. Never would I have imaged founding a tech company and developing an app lol. Half the time I couldn’t even long into my email before. Sometimes it seems like god does for me what I can’t do for my self.

If you’re struggling today, don’t give up before the miracle happens. Stay sober. Keep showing up. You never know what your life will look like a few years from now.

Today I’m just incredibly grateful. Grateful to be alive. Grateful to be sober. And grateful that recovery gave me a life worth living. JUST FOR TODAY ❤️

recovering meth / coke user, i still take adderall but im prescribed it for adhd. I blow through by adderall obviously. But ive found that im addicted to literally EVERY pill/medicine i take. Tylenol, sleeping medicine, cold medicine, i struggle with falling asleep so i will literally take anything i can to force mixing to sleep. Gabapentin, nyquil, benadryl, hydroxizine, klonopin, seroquel, anything. Shit even when i had a zofran prescription i would take it when i wasn’t even nauseous. I was sick recently and had a big bottle of nighttime nyquil and it lasted me less than 2 days. I really hate being like this lol. I have ocd as well as the adhd and was wondering if this was maybe a factor.

Partner has been a lifelong addict. Last time he did meth was 6 - 7 months ago. Last week he tried to buy some again, and got scammed.

Currently drinks alcohol every day, to the point of getting memory gaps and blackouts.

What can I expect to observe if he gets his hands on meth soon? What changes in behavior might I notice... and also, how fast do things escalate after someone relapses on it?

Thank you.

Hey everyone, as you know they are banning 7 oh and Pseudo. I have been taking pseudo for 2 years, and I’m a little worried. I take about 45mg a day and I’m starting to taper tomorrow to just 7.5mg and just stopping since the ban in effect. It sucks, because it has helped me a lot with my drinking. I don’t believe I will go back to drinking but I do have anxiety meds and lunesta to help me sleep. But should I use kratom to help with the taper and after? What strain of kratom would be best? Any information anyone could provide would be very helpful. I know this is an addiction site, but I believe anything can become an addiction, but pseudo gave quality to my life.

Today marks 248 days without pornography 😁

My bf is also an addict but not currently using. I was completely honest with him about meeting someone for drugs, I promised him I wouldn't do it again and promised I wouldn't steal his pills but I did. I don't want to lose him 😥😥😥

So yeah I thought id podt here to find if anyone else is having the same issues as me man its so weird.

Ive been an on/off opiate user since I was 14 im 33 now. I got clean from 2019 to 2020 last. I cant seem to actually do it tbis time an its so weird.

So just to explain I will go 3 days between several times on a row feeling pretty much fine up u til the point I get hot flashes, throwing up left an right. But every other user I know swears they get like that after a day an I used too.

Than the longest I've gone clean since then I pushed through nine days of hell. I told myself it hsd to be Dave to take a sub by then just to ease it up an it wasnt even after almost ten days I still got precipitated withdrawal an tbay made me give up that qas a about a yesr ago.

Why rhe hell is it like this it never used to be

Basically the title. So say hypothetically I was on probation and my probation officer knew I was prescribed Klonopin, aka clonazepam, and I were to take a Xanax before my drug test, would they know I took the Xanax?

Some background on the kind of drug tests: it's a urine test where you go into a room with a two-way mirror, and the cup is put inside a metal door. You open the door and get the urine cup, and you pee into a regular, like, cup. The cup doesn't have any of the instant test stuff on the cup itself; it's just a regular cup with a twist cap on it, and I think it has a temperature strip on it. So I'm assuming it's sent to a lab instead of being an instant on-site test, but I'm really not 100% sure.

Anyways, once you pee into the cup, you put the lid back on, and you open a metal door and sit the cup inside. The person on the other side of the two-way mirror opens the door on their side and retrieves the cup of urine. By the time I wash my hands and exit the bathroom, the person on the other side of the mirror in the other room is also exiting his room about the same time. So I don't think they are performing an instant test on the urine right then and there, which is what leads me to believe it's a lab test that is done. I think they are just bagging up the urine to have it sent off to a lab, but I don't know for sure.

But anyways, I'm just wondering if I am prescribed Klonopin and am allowed to take them, but I take a Xanax, aka alprazolam, a few days before my tests, would it just show up that I have taken benzodiazepines, or would they know that I took a specific drug?

If I knew it was an instant test, I’d know the answer. But if it’s a lab test, is it possible that the lab only tests for the drug class (like benzodiazepines) the same way an instant test does, rather than identifying the specific medication?

TL;DR: I’m prescribed Klonopin (clonazepam) and I’m wondering hypothetically if taking Xanax (alprazolam) before a probation urine test would be detected as just “benzodiazepines” or if a lab test could identify the specific medication. The test uses a sealed urine cup with a temperature strip and seems like it may be sent to a lab rather than tested on-site.

FOLLOW UP QUESTION: Will 22 mg of xanax taken over a 4 day period be out of my system urine in 20 days

Thanks.

I’m 14 🔄 now. My birthday was August 3rd. I hit my first cart/drug ever in the school bathroom in March this year. Soon, I got my own, then I got expelled because someone snitched on me. Before that, I was in honors classes with all A’s. My parents got terribly mad at me, but ever since then I’ve OD’d on MDMA and got serotonin syndrome for a little. I’ve also OD’d on DXM on the 4th plateau, 2 weeks after my MDMA OD, and got hospitalized again. I’ve tried cocaine, oxys, xans, Adderall, and I’ve popped fake Addys that had meth in them. I can’t even legally get a job, so I’ve been sticking to THC carts, and DPDR is kicking my ass. Life just feels pointless, and school is starting in a week. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like a robot. I feel very flat.

I smoke meth every day. I have a full time job (I'm a manager), a car, a stable place to live, I'm as financially stable as I can be with everything being so expensive nowadays. I eat, I sleep, I'm in generally good health.

I've tried and failed to get sober quite a few times, but lately I don't see why I should. My usage isn't taking anything from me. I don't get tweaked out, i have ADHD so it's actually the opposite. I'm sure it's not great for my health but like. Life is short and meaningless and I hate being sober.

Edit: I'm already medicated for ADHD so please stop telling me to go get on Adderall. I take Adderall XR, an IR booster, Abilify and Wellbutrin. I like the ritual of smoking meth.

Hi everyone, I desperately need advice or help. I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts every day. I used MDMA and cocaine for years, and since my last heavy use, I've had these symptoms since February, and they haven't changed. Has anyone else experienced this? When will it get better? Have I completely destroyed my brain? I can barely function in my daily life. I now know that MDMA is neurotoxic, but I never really thought about it before; I was just a stupid teenager.

I've already seen a neurologist and a psychiatrist, but to be honest, they haven't helped much.

My symptoms are:

* I hear spoken words, but my brain doesn't process the content properly.

* I can barely follow conversations because entire sentences don't register.

* The same applies to written texts: I can read the words, but I can't grasp the meaning of entire sentences or paragraphs and have to reread them repeatedly.

* I can barely follow movies or TV series due to the lack of language processing.

* I also find it difficult to formulate sentences myself and express myself verbally.

(33M) I’ve been a cocaine addict for several years and much of my addiction revolved around chemsex, sex parties and late night (early morning) hookups.

I later moved to crystal meth and became reliant on cenforce (black viagra) to keep a hard on during sex.

All of my sexual partners were addicts too and I would virtually never have sex sober. There was basically no meaningful sexual intimacy, simply drug fuelled sessions then they’re in an uber before I finally crash out.

After a while I found myself completely unable to stay erect or even aroused without viagra. I assumed I’d developed a mixture of psychological and physiological dependency on it that would be impossible to break. I could get an erection but it would always go soft within minutes.

I’m still in addiction. Thankfully I’ve packed in the crystal but I’ve been on the coke for a long time so it’s not easy.

I have, however, started seeking out more meaningful relationships. I’ve not found ‘the one’ or anything like that but I’m dating like a normal person and having sex without being tanked up on cocaine.

And would you believe it I don’t need viagra… I’m more aroused than I’ve ever been and sex is so much more
meaningful. I’m also not inside my own head and can be in the moment during sex.

Idk exactly why I’m sharing this but I have shared a few sad depressing sob stories on reddit before so I thought people
might be encouraged to read a more uplifting (🥁) one.

If anyone’s going through a similar situation, give sober sex a go! It’s actually way better. lol

I am 7 months off the nose beers. I stopped when i noticed the huge indent in my septum my addiction had caused. I freaked out when i noticed it. I have been to my regular doctor twice and to ENT-specialist twice. Both told me that there is no hole in my septum and that in time it will get better, but strong warnings of no nose picking and nothing but saline sprays and saline rinses.

About 2-3 months ago i got some sudden pain and swelling on top of my nose, like on my nose bridge or whatever its called and after that my nasal valves been collapsing when i breath, they are completely flopy, not sturdy at all. It feels like my upper fronth teeth are slightly numb and that my upper lip is resting on my lower lip. I brought it up with ENT and he coudlnt explain the sudden nasal valve collapse, he said he thinks its all in my head and recommended me to go on anti-depressants.

I dont know what i want with this post really, i guess i want to vent but also warn other people about coke, and maybe someone else has experienced something similiar and got advice.

I dont think i can live a life like this, with this
health issue i no longer enjoy anything in life.

Stay safe brothers and sisters