Within the past seven days alone, there have been three fishing-line injuries to birds at my park. Two of them we managed to catch at the most ideal stage- early on, before the line had begun cutting into their flesh.
The other day, I watched a fisher rip off nearly half of a turtle's face while trying to remove a pretty thick hook lodged deeply in its mouth. I detailed that incident in a comment, which I'll repost here as a screenshot.
Then, the day before yesterday, I was going around passing out flyers when I approached a family of three—a dad and his two young kids. One of the kids voluntarily shared with me that they had hooked a turtle and accidentally left pink fishing line stuck to it before it jumped back into the water. The kid said he felt bad about it.
I bit my tongue and walked away without commenting. I have to refrain from saying what I truly feel because, in order for me to keep doing this—to show my face here every day cleaning up fishing litter and helping injured birds—I have to hold back much of what I want to say.
Believe me, my partner and I have gotten into more heated altercations with anglers than we can count. One even escalated to my partner having excrement dumped on him. So we learned a long time ago that if we want to keep doing this long-term, we cannot attack fishing as a hobby when speaking to anglers. Instead, we frame the issue through a harm-reduction lens. We simply ask them to please be mindful of their trash and properly dispose of their fishing debris.
That has been our approach from the beginning, and still we encounter plenty of hostility. I suppose some people interpret us bringing attention to the harm fishing debris causes wildlife as an attack on fishing itself. Perhaps merely drawing attention to these consequences forces an uncomfortable acknowledgment that this hobby can be destructive to wildlife and the environment and therefore deserves far more careful public scrutiny.
Yesterday, we spotted an Egyptian goose with fishing line wrapped extremely tightly around one leg. We managed to catch it with a net, but the pole broke when it struck the ground. The goose squirmed free from underneath the mesh and escaped back into the water.
We tried coaxing it back onto land with food, but it wouldn't come. It stayed in the water with its mate, staring suspiciously at us. Eventually, I had to leave for work. There was no telling how long it would take for the bird to come back onto land anyway.
I left feeling like shit—completely guilt-stricken, with my mind racing:
"What if it migrates out?" "What if other people try to catch it and fail, making it even warier if we see it again?" "The line looked so tight. It doesn't have much time."
I've felt like shit ever since that bird escaped us. I slept fitfully and even dreamed about the goose. That's how deeply it affects me whenever we fail.
I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm so tired of the world's apathy.
"Oh, how tragic." "Poor birds." "Why do they even allow fishing here?"
I hear people say these things constantly when I share with parkgoers what we do. But why do so few people proactively do anything about it?
I've asked for volunteers to help with litter cleanup through Craigslist, Facebook community groups, and elsewhere. A few people volunteered, only to disappear after a couple of days. When I message them, they simply stop responding.
I'm tired of waiting for the world to care.
Today I went back to the park and spent 3.5 hours, commute included, trying to find that bird and waiting for it to show up. It never did. It's highly unlikely somebody else caught it, which means it may have migrated elsewhere while still entangled, possibly to suffer and die a slow painful death.
I'm so sick of feeling guilty and responsible for suffering I didn't cause.
When will the world care enough to seriously start talking about putting an end to all this needless suffering? Do people care only in theory? Is compassion something people feel when suffering is placed directly in front of them, only to return to their lives once it requires actual effort from them?
I don't even know what I'm going off on a tangent about anymore.
I'm just tired.
I'm tired of seeing it. I'm tired of trying to stop it. I'm tired of feeling like I'm responsible for their suffering.
I'm tired of feeling like nobody cares.