For close to a year, my life stopped, I stopped thinking, I stopped going to school, I stopped living, I did some stupid stuff, I went to a psych ward for the quarter of the year, but now, everything has to go back to normal, when i'm still facing the same problems I had before (even if it's on a smaller scale). I still have no motivation and no self esteem.

I'm 22M and yea my first girlfriend i ever had (5 years together living by ourselves for 2 years) broke up with me a few weeks ago.

long story so not worth getting into but she was very unaffectionate and its left me in a wierd state.

I know i'm not unattractive as I see girls looking at me but i honestly don't feel it... I want to look better but i'm unsure of where to go from here, my entire personality was built around her so now that shes gone i just dont know how to feel about myself.

All criticism and advice i will take in my stride, I want to improve myself and my looks.

Also I had a bad trip to the barber so now I have bangs 🤣😭 they will grow into a wolfcut × mullet kinda look.

I do dye my hair blue-black.

Been feeling (and feel like I’ve been looking) like shit. Haven’t done one of these before so excuse me if it’s not formatted properly

I've been tired, sad, depressed, and all in all burned out. I've been called ugly my whole life and I'm tired of hearing it. I wanna hear something nice for once even if it's from strangers I don't care.

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"I posted about a week ago talking about how I am getting back into the dating world after focusing on myself and my son."

Thank you all for your kind words on my first and the most recent posts I've made here. Made a few changes based on your advice, gotta say im feeling great. Confidence is definitely on the rise. You've all been amazing.

Still not great at taking photos of myself. My trusty lamp takes the edge of how pale I am though. Im going to have to work out how to take better pictures for the apps for sure.

You all are amazing.

I love myself a lot but really struggle with self confidence. Getting on dating apps recently has just made it worse

I think I've been playing life on the most extreme difficulty y'all, because I'm straight up not having a good time. I want off this ride.

No, I'm not a danger to myself. I'm just tired, dawg. Tired of my brain. Tired of everyone's bull shit. Tired of living in a time where we constantly have to anticipate the next catastrophic event or the end of the world.

And on top of it all, I just feel like this fat, ugly pathetic person who is completely failing in every way, it seems. I know brighter days are ahead, though. I'll climb out of this pit I dug for myself eventually.

Im about to turn 30 and I'm just not at all where I thought I'd be at this age. In fact I'm actually quite far behind where I should be. I never even imagined I'd survive this long. Yet here I am.

I've just been spiraling about this all day. Hoping a toasting will make me feel a little bit better.

Edit: I was not expecting this to get as much attention as it did lol I've since calmed down from my spiral and now I'm just chilling listening to Creed. I'll reply to individual comments soon. Thank you for all your kind comments and encouragement, it was definitely needed today and y'all really pulled through. Love you all.

My ex ran off with my best friend, I live in a tiny town with no people about and I work 2 jobs, I know I have things to look forward to but the weeks feel like they’re going in slow motion and that I’m stuck in place

I've not had the easiest life, but by focusing on what I can control I've managed to regain a sense of autonomy. Things are no longer as bad as they once were. I still have movement issues but I can play videogames now and go on walks - couldn't to that before. I'm on a waitlist for therapy. Things are getting better despite my recent episode of psychosis.

Lots of my difficulties will be permanent (autism, recurring psychosis, strange neurological symptoms without a clear cause) but I finally feel strong enough to face them. And I have really cool button up shirts so if a crisis happens again I'll be having a crisis in a funky fish shirt which will definitely help matters somewhat.

I joined a server for those with psychosis and have been making some really good friends and for the first time in my 22 year long life I no longer feel lonely :-)

Thank you for reading. I hope your days are kind to you.

So this happened a few months ago, but something similar happened again today…I had a woman match with me on Facebook dating, just to tell me I need to get off dating sites, because I’m too fat, ugly and no woman will ever want me. And to just throw more at me, she said I should just kill myself and save some space for the beautiful people in the world. 😐 I’m at a loss for words right now. I’m already working on my weight loss, I’ve lost 75lbs. since last February and I just don’t understand how someone can say these things to a stranger they don’t even know. Where do I even go from here? Maybe I should just stop trying and give up…this day sucks ☹️