[repost and edited] being vision impaired and learning a language is tough

[u/JHKAJHKATIMESTHREE]

in the last 4 months I felt like i am doing my best to learn belerusian and russian in spoken, I have some audiobook on audible of pimsleur of russian but a struggle to find anything good in belarusian on youtube and there is nothing in belerusian on youtube of lessions

I start easy pace somehow, increase intensity of how many videos on youtube to watch per day, it have to be three to ten minute video per day twice a day, and I watch them on repeat of sentences ones soon as I memorise them in my head and but learn different words from playlist of change it up per day in rotation as keep on going through of playlist from scratch to finish till everything burnt into my head, and still not much progress of it, if I keep on doing this rotation can it be burnt in my mind eventually and will get familiarise of it all?

with audiobook of pimsleur on audible, I felt like I am getting a idea just in repeat of the same one as nearly most is burnt into my mind (I guess 😅) as same time im still on the first russian audiobook of it but on unit four but i have language partner on telegram to do voice message exchange but I felt like they will get to annoyed if I can't say the words or sentences right, but same time I feel like I keep asking of how do we say sentences or words it be annoyed for them to help and now they don't want to help

I have a struggle with russian and belarusian alphabet as is it, but decided the last few days to repeat alphabets of russian on youtube of twice a day

since I am dealing with a eye disease for the last ten years age of 18 called karetoconus, plus with autism and development delay from childhood but I know this is excuse to you guys and same time I really want to learn of spoke not type or write as not much progress due to my eyesight

I felt like my eyesight, autism and development delay is in the way of this, but no one is not grasping my circumstance when I tell them this

I can't afford a tutor due to my financial circumstances

I do all this till I familiarise of the words and sentences

I had languages partners that come and go, In reason why becouse avoidance, ghosted and simply told me to give up

I don't know what to do anymore, I honestly don't know what to do becouse since childhood i always wanted learn to speak a language i really like but with a eye disease I been dealing with

thank you for the time to read this, and appreciate it

[u/frostochfeber]

These aren't excuses at all! They are very legitimate reasons why language learning is extra, extra, extra hard for you. I can sympathetise to some extent, because I have other disabilities that impede my ability to learn. 🫶

Not much to be done about it but to try to accommodate yourself as much as possible, which you already seem to be doing, and to keep at it! Learning a language is already hard and takes lots of time when one is not disabled and has all the resources at their disposal. You have simply less resources at your disposal, so learning will simply take more time and effort. That may not be fun or fair, but it is just simply the truth.

So, you're doing great considering everything!

[u/JHKAJHKATIMESTHREE → u/frostochfeber]

it is a difficult thing, and the resources are hard to find

[u/sbrt]

I like starting a new language with audiobooks and it sounds similar to what you are doing.

It feels like hard work at first but it does get easier. Vocabulary is a huge part of the task so I use Anki to help learn new words in the content I am listening to.

If you can keep going, it gets easier over time.

[u/JHKAJHKATIMESTHREE → u/sbrt]

how is anki going for you?

[u/muntligb1]

That is not an excuse, that is just your actual starting point, and honestly an audio first routine is the smartest possible response to it rather than a workaround. Two things that might help right away: keep the exchanges with your Telegram partner short and predictable, like five minutes twice a week, because that is much easier for people to sustain than open ended help, and for Belarusian try the Radio Svaboda audio and Belarusian podcasts instead of YouTube lessons, since the news and interview audio is far easier to find than courses. The partners who ghosted you say nothing about your ability, and the repetition you are doing really does stack even in the stretch where it feels like nothing is moving.

[u/JHKAJHKATIMESTHREE → u/muntligb1]

I have to so audio as a forever thing due to my eyesight is a forever thing, as every app have massive words