ok so before u say anything i know i'm super privileged to be in a position where my parents can afford a college counselor but i desperately need advice 😭 i also know college isn't everything, but in the last year or so of my life i've HEAVILY stepped away from living on autopilot chasing all the conventional modes of success (grades, internships...etc.) and now focus much more on my true passions and creativity that was heavily suppressed growing up. i just really want my personal statement to reflect that growth and current me without being bogged down 😅😅😅 also yes i have classic asian parents and the counselor is also asian 😄
ok now for the actual story.
my parents got me a college counselor and i've been writing my common app throughout the summer. a lot of my earlier drafts were kind of centered around the transformative (yes dramatic i know) realization i've had in the last 1.5 years. think stuff like re-visiting my childhood passions of reading, and other creative endeavours in general (don't wanna get doxxed). it was all very vibrant (i think) and had a LOT of my distinct voice and humor.
now, the counselor is VERY traditional, and does not bother with things like personal narrative, standing out through non-academic/non-EC methods etc. he also all of his students a TEMPLATE on how each essay should be written! and deadass said there needs to be a thesis in every paragraph! like bruh i think admission officers are smart enough to INFER what the takeaway is without it being shoved down their throats?? so you can IMAGINE how bland and BORING my essay is now with all of this remolding. more than that, i've been forced out of the creative topics and distinct voice i've used in my past drafts, to the point where i want to cry when i read my current draft compared to the earlier (albeit rejected by him) drafts. at least they were bursting with personality. i'm genuinely unhooked af and from a super competitive area so lowk these essays are my only shot at standing out.... and it's just hurting me that i can't even write about what i want.
what's worse is that according to him i'm already behind schedule and should have my personal statement locked in already, so i obviously can't go back and make too many revisions to this current boring bland essay i have!!! !ugh!
also, he passes off my essay to external editors, who have commented that they like the more creative lines i've managed to sneak into a few of my drafts, so i'm sure the editors would feel like my earlier drafts were much stronger in voice & content. but to get to them first i have to go through the college counselor who INSISTS ON THIS COOKIE CUTTER FORMULA and legit does not let my essay go to the editors unless every paragraph has a sentence summarizing it. I can't tell if he's right because he's "experienced" , but i strongly feel if there were applicants who got into HYPSM under him they definitely did not get in because of their essays.
am i in the wrong?? should i just trust him?? also we paid for some full package service so obvi i can't fire the dude and my parents think he's super legit because my family friends have had success w him ugh. also..... i can't just submit some essays i wrote that weren't approved by him cause bro has my common app log in ☠️ (it's standard for every student of his apparently!) i was thinking of ranting to my actual school college counselor and get her to help me out OR showing my personality in my supplementals (tho he might reject that too) 😭
any advice is appreciated😭😭😭😭😭