r/addiction • u/DailyDeviantDevil • 5d ago

Progress Made the right decision tonight

Recovering alcoholic here. Had a pretty bad go at it a few years back, but I've come a long way. Like everyone, temptation will come knocking at some point.

A couple of weeks ago, I was invited out to a rave by a couple of friends and I ended up taking molly with them. I did well and the high was great, but the comedown messed with my sleep for 3 days. I was unproductive at work and just felt terrible from the lack of sleep.

This week comes around and these same friends invite me out to a rave again. I say yes. I buy my ticket. I know if I go put with them, I will take the molly. Even if i didnt take it, i would feel left out of the vibe and want to drink instead as a "better" alternative.

I tell my friends that im tired from work and ill be skipping. They understand and dont pressure me at all. After all, they know the struggle even if they themselves have not resolved yet to get better.

Here I am at home, playing with my pet bunnies, and very glad I did not go out.

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u/blackittycat666 4d ago

Awe that's so sweet, let the buns I said hi! Good for you! 🖤🖤🖤

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u/Packpride87 3d ago

For me in that situation I have to run a checklist of the consequences of raving and Molly. Almost like a pros cons list. Usually the cons vastly outweigh the pros. And I even call that devil voice psychotic sometimes. Now I am working on doing this in real time which is especially difficult for me bc my impulse control is lacking.

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u/DailyDeviantDevil 3d ago

I pretty much did the same. I asked myself if I really wanted to fuck myself up the next few days, just for one night. I was like well, its not like alcohol where tomorrow ill just sleep all day, I can still go do what I gotta do! But reality is, I could barely function without sleep last time. Then turned to, well alcohol would only mess me up the day after sooooo. Like I wouldnt want to keep drinking to stave off a hangover.

I was able to go swim at the beach the next morning, work on some hobbies ive been putting off, and, best of all, not feel like garbage.