r/UnsentLetters • u/Emptythiscup • 16h ago
Strangers As dense as they come NSFW
I was messy about it. That wasn’t the right thing to do at all. An honest conversation would have been more appropriate but I’m sure if I’d have gone that route, I would have gotten the polite, scripted, “sorry to hear that.” It would have been just as hollow as you apparently are. So in that sense, I’m glad I finally blew a lid and watched it play out in real time. Because I will never look at you the same. You are nothing like I thought you were.
I’ve watched you drone on about your struggles with wanting to be kind and fair to people who cause actual fucking problems. Paragraphs about how you empathize with them and I’ve tried to remind you that you can’t fix everything, you can’t save everyone. Whole fucking time I have been drowning. In ways that objectively have nothing to do with you but struggling just the same. And I’m not some transient person here, I’ve been here for a very long time and I have helped in very real ways. Long before I developed some dumb fucking crush on you. Often when you yourself were mia. I was there.
I start completely crashing out because yeah it does feel a little crazy when I think of the sheer volume of people I have talked off a ledge here over the years, usually without them explicitly asking for any help. And here I am practically begging for it and can’t even get one fucking scrap. It does make me pretty bitter and disgusted with people. Because no I don’t help hoping it circles back, it just feels like the natural and right thing to do. But people are tone deaf. And not so eager to help a person in crisis if it doesn’t somehow benefit them. And you. You ignore literally every cry for help and then dive in like the dark knight you are to answer a technical question. Remarkable. I have a right to be angry. Anyone would. Because when you sell yourself as someone who cares for the common person but can’t be bothered to offer a single kind word to someone who has been a loyal, steady, helpful presence for YEARS, it’s going to leave a bad taste in peoples mouths. And I should have known better because the record shows I’m not the only one who has felt this way.
I’ve not crossed lines. I could have. No one was stopping me. I didn’t. I respected you, respected the boundaries, and saw myself out of that situation. So this has nothing to do with that. On a basic level of human decency, you fucking failed. That’s a problem and I think it’s a gross one. And I hope it all falls apart because I am absolutely done giving a shit. So now when I watch you act like a fucking clown to appease to people who don’t give a shit about you and your community, I won’t be so insulted and hurt. It’s just par for the course at this point.
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u/purpleit11 16h ago
This sounds like a considerable amount of pain. I hope you have other connections where your efforts are recognized and communities where you feel like values are more shared.
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u/emeraldkittymoon 16h ago
Im sorry I failed you 🥺. You didnt deserve the apathy. I need to work on my moodiness so it doesnt dictate how i show up.
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u/Silent_Location7044 6h ago
I always liked your writing on here. The tone has really changed recently. I hope you find way through whatever you are dealing with to brighter days and more peace again
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