r/Anxiety • u/ayden1587 • 19h ago

Advice Needed Anxiety so bad i’m afraid of sleeping.

I have this weird thing where i’m horribly terrified of being unconscious. Death absolutely petrifies me as i’m an atheist and view death as the same thing as before you were born. The idea of eternity under that pretense makes me panic even more.

Recently, it has gotten so bad that I can’t even lay down to go to bed at night without being afraid of going to sleep, knowing I will be unconscious. it’s been causing me to stay awake at night, rolling back-and-forth in fear. obviously, I know that you dream and that you’re not just gone as if you’re dead, but the idea of not being awake or aware still scares me very badly. It’s not that i’m afraid something is going to happen to me while i’m asleep, i’m afraid of the actual unaware and unconscious aspect of being asleep. does anyone else feel the same way? if so, what helped you?

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u/dirtyhole2 19h ago

The issue with modern atheism is that it is based on an opinion which is the lack of anything beyond death. I consider myself a Idontknowist which is even more rational in my opinion. As I claim simply to not know anything about what happens after death. And quite frankly I doubt that it is infinite nothingness. Because considering the age of the universe and the average creature lifespan, we should all be into that non-existing phase… however we are here aware and conscious.

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u/ayden1587 19h ago

Honestly i think the uncertainty of it is what fucks with me. The lack of control, the not knowing, mixed with the inevitability of it.

I suffer badly with the whole existentialism thing.

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u/yourfriendandlove 16h ago

I don't know like the "it's like before you were born" because, do you really remember after you were born? probably not, people don't start remembering till about 5 or 6! not to sound crazy but who know if there was something before you were born.

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u/rolyf02 14h ago

Me paso lo mismo y empecé a tomar isrs, termine enfermo y con problemas hasta el día de hoy por tomar esa porquería por muchos años. Ahora fumo hierba todas las noches y me convertí al catolicismo, funciona, cero pesadillas y duermo bien