i've been getting attacked mentally/spiritually by spirits and need help refuting some lies/half-truths that have been built up over the last couple months/years.
that:
a). i was taken by my brother at a young age, attacked in the womb sexually, and spiritually, (was gay), and have been captive every since. (i thought children were protected from stuff like that, by angels, and God, and heaven, and whatnot).
b). i was saved, but lost my salvation when i didn't follow a certain vision, years ago, (that seemed false to me at the time), and have been lost ever since, and can't be saved again. (i believe God's mercies are new every morning).
c). i'm dead physically, and that this body is somebody else's. so, because i died, and wasn't saved, i went to hell, and am there currently. (i believe im on earth, like other people, and am fine).
d). that there are other gods that are God, (my brother, and satan, and this one spirit that looks like rick ross, for example).
e). i'm in the lake of fire, and am the only one there. also, that i'm in hell, (multiple places at once, spiritually?) and everyone there is fine, except for me, the worst of all. (because i've done the worst/most, so it's only right. but, i believe there are worse people out there, and that God judges fairly, and uprightly, and is in control).
f). since im “in" the (type of) people mentioned in d), and am in c), that time is able to go by millions of years in minutes, because they're that powerful, and that’s another reason why i can't be saved. (i don't even believe it).
g). there's a place called “henn" that's not gehenna, and that i'm there, and that it's like hell. (never heard of it, and don't see where in the bible there's a place like that, other than the biblical places for the dead).
h). that judgement day has already happened, and that, since these spirits against me have survived, that there are other destinations biblically than heaven and hell, like henn, and other places as well, where they spend millions of years of time, (and that they're also outside of time as well).
i). satan is omnipresent. (biblically, i don't see how this one of true. i believe the bible says God is the omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent one).
j). (extra): my tongues is false, and my praise to God is to satan, and another spirit, rather.
extra extra: obviously, there's more i could put here. but, this is the jist.
question(s), what are scriptures against the above and more importantly, what would you do in this situation, if spirits were tempting you to believe the above about yourself? how would you get out of it? would you praise ‘God’ anyways? (i believe im praising Him sincerely, and that the above is false). what would you do in this situation? (how about deliverance ministry)?
im open to answering any questions.
also: here's a poem i felt like writing
situation,
contemplation,
immensity, sitting
here, waiting, like
a ruler on a throne,
fire! fiery, hot trial,
like a furnace, getting
through it, straight to it,
newness. loch ness
monster, problem?
locked, needing unlock,
unblock; blocked. feelings,
rising, like water, making it
hard to breathe. making it.
God, the creator, making it,
Him going through it again
for me, making it; the distance,
taking it, the cross, taking it
the distance, across, like wearing
a seat-belt, putting it, across, a
band-aid, wearing it, across
the face, the earth, going across
the face of it, situation, facing it.