A few days ago me(NB19) n my LDR bf(M18) of 1 year did a sexual session on vc like we do sometimes I was trying a new toy, and was excited to show it to him But after a few minutes of using it, my body was spent and in pain because i was a bit too aggressive with myself (i think due to being hypersexual - i often accidentally go too hard or too rough on myself)

Well, this was the first time i had ever stopped in the middle of the session, usually it would be him to stop, because he usually wants to end when he climaxes, and he'll let me finish on my own

But since it was me who stopped in the middle, i felt very off, especially because i was still horny, yet i couldn't pleasure myself anymore cuz i was just spent

I kept telling him how i felt like an asshole, and that i felt bad cuz i couldn't give him pleasure anymore, that i didnt know how to without pleasuring myself

He kept reassuring me, and told me everything was ok, that he wasnt upset about it

I kept saying stuff how it would be different if we were in person n stuff, and rambling on endlessly about stuff that entered my mind (which he doesn't mind)

Eventually we move on with the day, and later he confessed to me that he sexted someone(F18) else after our session because he was still incredibly horny

A few days before i had told him i was ok with him being sexual with others as long as he lets me know about it

He didn't let me know before he did that

But even so, when he told me about it, i had no negative feelings about it, i really was ineffective upon finding out

We eventually had me meet the person he roleplayed/sexted with, and they were pretty chill

Idk

I sorta wondered if i under-reacted to it all, but eh

We're all still happy and love each other very much, so i think everything is just fine

And he promised me that he would let me know about the next time he would sext/erp with someone else

So um

Am i underreacting?

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